Tuesday, August 01, 2006

OK FINE, THATS IT, DUN WAN TALK FINE I ALSO CAN PLAY ALONG.. NOT AS IF I WILL DIE WITHOUT YOU..

knowing ya, i have been stopping to talk about maple cars driving ETC outside le liao.. fine.. and i try to find other blardy subjects to talk about.. i tried.. do u see? no u dun.. u jus pick up my fucking bad points and jus wanna slaughter me with it? fine..

BBGDarkEra needs no leader.. u can run it well ask u wan.. u all.. go run.. no need me.. i am not important as a fren or a leader.. i am nth k? and sae i whine? ok... let me whine all i wan.. u bother in the first place? bloody hell fucking shit no... so what the bloody hell i go post so much fucking shit in the forums to have a change of topics.. nah.. no one cares.. i am nobody.. and i will be nobody in your life.. i swear i am about to tear right now... ya... fuck off..

in this world.. i am jus a lone.. no one cares anyway.. who does.. who wanna care for me duh.. am i worth it? i dun tink so.. cos u all using ur blardy time doing other elses things... maple.. i play so much.. escape from reality.. stop mapling.. and i start drifting or dotaing or drumming or wad.. etc... cos in the virtual world is where i find my home my place.. not in this world... thats why my perfect gf is my laptop, my perfect home is my room, and my gateway to the world is my com.. where i access everything i need i want.. jus a click.. and no worries from the real world anyway... jus pay up bills.. study.. learn more hw to use com thats all..

why u wanna torture me.. against me.. fine u wan come kill me i am fine with it at least i know my soul can rest somewhere in my com.. at least i know my limits and i stop.. i nver ever flamed or shoot or scold any person without reason.. even my enemies i forgive.. forgive and forget.. you do? nah.. dun... dun fuck ard and sae u did.. u think u so blardy great go prove it.. i no need to see anyway.. not interested.. you nver realise the pain agony..

grace.. if u ever read my blog.. which i doubt u will.. thanks for bringing me to church.. and marvin.. thanks too.. at least i know i can turn to someone... someone who listens and replies in various way that care and concern bout me.. not like humans..

humans are inperfect.. i got to admit that.. i am a human too.. i give and let.. but some just wont forgive and forget.. wadever reason i heck care.. fucking hell.. wad brotherhood wad frenship.. they are jus starting to become rubbish to me.. the world i am in.. music.. games.. i learn all myself.. learn from internet, help ppl give ppl advices in this and that.. but who appreciates? no one.. no one.. not even a single soul i know.. sae so much.. waste so much time to research even on a game.. and help a fren with it.. not even a thanks or wad etc.. is this a fren? hw would i know?

help train up... kks i level fast.. ur prob? DUH FUCKING NO~~~ i lvl its for power.. yes.. as with power comes greater responsibilty and more experience.. at least can have someone to turn to when u need help.. i wanna help.. if i can.. but guess wad... when i can and wanna help.. they jus reject it.. ok ok.. thats the way u wanna it to paly? ok... get the guild up.. choose ur own nick... it took me days to think wad is approiate to write.. for the guild names.. and u all find it wah.. complain wad not nice.. etc... DO I EVEN GET A CREDIT FOR PUTTING THOSE AND KEEPING IT? NO!!!

Marvin thanks again

you all jus complain and wanna change.. ok fine.. change... and when i give ideas.. u all take it as a big joke.. oh i am not serious... fine fine.. what the fuck u wan then? ur ideas? then blardy hell tell the ideas and i put.. i have been gd enough to like consult everything.. from differnt lvl issues to members etc.. i asked your opinion.. i followed ur opinion sometime.. or can sae mostly.. BUT I TOO GOT MY OWN OPINION... but do u all ever think in my shoes? NO.. duh.. since when u all gave in anyway? i give in.. yes i admit i give in nth wrong with that.. dun tell me i fucking didnt..

u wan advices for things.. pq blah etc.. ok.. i did gave some.. i told wad to do and wads not so gd.. i not as pro as blu.. nor as high lvl as kyou.. or even as popular as sasa.. no i am not aiming that... written on my birth date etc.. i saw one point is my life wad lonely.. its really true then... looks like these online stuffs are all true... so.. why cant i live with it? i am trying to change my fate my destiny.. but u all are blardy hell stopping it.. u know hw it feels? i dun tink u all knows at all.. not even a single bit.. so dun let me catch u saying u understand blah blah.. dun act lar...

enough said.. i really had enough of my life.. i had enough and i dun wan any more.. if u wan me go i go, and u no need send me or follow..

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